My Virtual Blog Birthday Party is now winding down. I've steeped a nice pot of chamomile tea for those who've decided to stay over. Candles have been lit, and we're all just sitting around on the comfy couches, chatting about the game of "Spin the Bottle" that took place earlier... brings to mind one particular party game I once played...It was 1987, and my group of friends had come over to watch the video of my big 18th birthday party, my
Debut, that had taken place the weekend before.
At the time, I had a most embarrassing crush on one of the guys in the group -- let's call him Rob*. In truth, it was more than just a silly crush. Rob meant a lot to me, but I didn't think I was
anywhere near the type he'd be interested in dating. I'd see him with other girls -- pretty and popular -- and I knew there was no way he'd see me as more than a friend.
Unfortunately, I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve, so the whole group knew about my feelings, including Rob himself. But I was convinced that if I didn't say anything, I could pretend that he didn't know and save myself from total embarrassment. Yup, coward, I know.
So, anyway, back to the party game...
One of my girlfriends decided that we should play
Spoons. I don't remember the specifics -- I'd never heard of the game before -- but it was like
Truth or Dare.
After a few rounds, it was my turn to either tell the truth or do the dare. I chose
Truth. The question I was given was "Who do you like?".
I was horrified. He was right THERE! What were they thinking?! Why would they want me to spill the beans? I was a total innocent at the time -- my days of accosting my future-husband in his car on my parents' driveway were in the far future -- so I couldn't read my friends' motives.
At this point, I felt like the center of a cruel joke and more than a little betrayed. In retrospect, these were my friends -- and they still are -- and I shouldn't have suspected anything bad, but at the time, I just needed to protect my feelings... so... I LIED!
Yes, folks,
I cheated the game and lied. I told them I liked AJ* instead. Really, I wasn't going to bare my soul, not knowing how Rob felt! Seriously! Did they think I was crazy?!
Anyway, the get-together ended with all of my friends respecting that I didn't want to admit to anything that night. And life went on.
A few months later, Rob told me that he knew about my crush on him. By then, we'd become better friends, and I'd learned that he was even sweeter and kinder than I'd first imagined. I knew he wouldn't laugh at me, but I also didn't want to hear him apologize for not feeling the same way back.
So, once again... I lied... and told him I didn't feel that way about him anymore. I decided to let him off the hook. I just wanted to get over him. And in time -- a LONG time -- I did.
Okay, folks, that's my post-party drunken-buzz confession.

It may be my birthday, but now
I'm going to give YOU a present -- well, one of you, at least. I've confessed my First True Love Crush story.
Now I want you to tell me yours!Share with me -- in the comments section -- your own First Crush story, and you may just
win your own brand spankin' new copy of "Surrender" by Kimberly Zant, one of my favourite erotica books.
You must be 18 years of age and older. No purchase necessary.
You have until
11:59pm CDT, Friday, October 17, 2008 to give me your story.
Now, here's the twist...
YOU get to vote the winner! Email me, and let me know which story you like the best.
You cannot vote for your own story! In case of a tie, I place the tie-breaking vote.Voting ends 11:59pm CDT, Monday, October 20, 2008.
The winner will be announced the next day.Thanks for coming to my 1st Blog Birthday Virtual Bash! I hope you had fun!
Relive the whole virtual birthday bash... Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, and Part 5.* Names have been changed to protect the innocent... heck, I wish I could change *my* name in this story... yeesh...